Post II

I need to be more serious about things in life.

You live in the real world, bad stuff happens, and people's whole lives and psychology changes. NO one ever notices though.

Things like homosexuality, child molesting, and STD's. These are bad things. But notice, how often society talk about them, jokes about them. Maybe to try and believe they're not real, or maybe because it's so easy to joke for them.

But the girl or boy next to you could be suffering, and your joking puts them on end. You wouldn't know.

The way they write it in books. Books like Frankenstein, where the doctor is haunted by his own creation, and the thought of even science physically hurts him. Yeah, that's real life.

Except it's not Frankenstein's monster. It's a guy's feelings towards other guys, a relative that did something terrible, or a bad decision one late night that you will never forget or forgive.

THINK ABOUT IT!

You could throw someone over an emotional cliff by half a joke. That emotional fall could send them to tears, to porn, to cutting themselves, or to even killing themselves.

My tone is dark, but this is real!

Jesus' love prevails, but you have to know about the real world, man.

I address this to myself, more than anyone else.

Post I

Why is all the art I like so melancholy? I mean, the secular songs, the movies...

It's happy, but I tend to see through it, or just see the sad parts. Even in music.

Is it I'm too perceptive at the wrong times? It just often seems... hmm.

I am filled with joy however, I just don't express it in a "socially recognized" way. Whatevs. 

I've never been an introvert. I guess I can't handle it sometimes. I genuinely think alone time is just bad for me.

In small quantities, no, of course not. But, whole days, I just think about the same things too much. It's like I've thought of all that there is to think about.

No, I just think till I realize I've already thought about this, and stop because I don't like cognitive repetition. Weird me.